Bryan / Leave

I'm starting to get worried about Bryan. He says he'll cut down some shifts if how he's feeling doesn't platue. I know how it is when your just waiting for your body to get use to your torture and after that you don't even notice anything anymore. Well I a really good call from the government yesterday and it turns out that I will be recieving more than I thought for my Maternity leave. I guess it payed to stay till I my leave. Can you believe it's tax season again, it feels so early. Mind you when you wait till June to do them the previous year, it's no wonder it feels that way.

I made Bread again yesterday and the loaves wouldn't rise! Then I remembered why your called sourdough in the Yukon after you've been here for a winter......It's the only kind of bread that will rise in the cold winters! It was -35 not including windchill yesterday and now this morning so that explains it. Maybe I should start making sourdough bread instead,lol. As you can tell I am getting very bored with staying at home. When the winter Games is done I can get the the Multiplex again and take Sanora swimming and such like I planned....Ahhh will be nice!

Truck is finally done!

Bryan was finally able to pick up the truck today. They also had replaced all of the spark plugs and a few other thing saying they didn't want to give us the truck only to have it have to come back. So on top of a replaced gasket the truck got a tune-up, which we are very happy about. Next this week we are picking up the car seat, so anytime after that she can be born, but until then stay in there sweety,lol.

Pics of Sanora's writtings

This is a letter that Sanora did herself for Gena. We spelt out our names for her and she wrote them down. This will be mailed off for Gena as soon as we get photos taken. Gena Sanora misses her shoe shopping Aunty very much!



My aunty Jan wanted to see some of Sanora's writting so I thought I would ask Sanora to write down some of the words she knows how to spell. This is what she came up with......As I puff up my mommy chest,lol.

Photo Update

Bryan never lets me take his picture but this is one that he took himself a couple of months ago with the web cam. I will try and get a current one of him soon.



I titled this one "Mommy you chopped of my hands!" because when I had showed Sanora the photo that I took that is exactly what she said.



Of course Sanora being cute again. Behind her is the bassonet and change table in our room all set for baby to go in it.



As soon as I pulled out the camera she did a madona!



Sanora asked to take a picture of me tonight so I gave her the camera and this is the photo she took.

Gerri update

Well my hotmail account is still down so I can't send off pics right now or send Gerri's update right at at the moment. Glenny I told her you said Hi and she says HI back. Gerri-Anne sends her love to everyone, and says she is doing well. Gerri has changed squadran's and is now with a new good of newbies as i call them. They would be the ones that she was talking about that everyone was making fun off. She didn't say anything for sure yet on dates, but I will keep you posted when she does.

Sanora Drawing!

Sanora Drawing! She is so use to me taking pictures of her over and over again that she doesn't even pay attention to me. I don't blam her!



Hard At Work!



I highlighted the mom and dad because she spelled it by herself. So far she spells CAT, DOG, PIG, MOM AND DAD! As long as I add another word in once every couple of weeks she's not resistant. Once she learns the word, she writes the words in her string of letters!

Belly Photos (36 Weeks)

I promise the wierd white stuff in the photots is nothing more than a dirty mirror. I took them into the mirror. I guess I should have cleaned it first!


Big Bellies, small bellies I love Prego Bellies!

A heart bigger than her size

Sanora is so sweet. We sat down for dinner and I put a bunch of hot sause on the rice dish I made. When I told Sanora that, she got upset with me (she hates anything hot and thinking of the baby) said "but mommy I don't want you to burn her mouth, I love her!" I thought that was the sweatest thing. She then made sure I drank alot of water so that it would make Sienna's mouth to stop burning from the hot sause. I can't wait to see them together.

Baby Coming Soon!

Last night was crazy, I thought for a little bit that I was going into labor. It ended up just being Broxton Hicks, which are contractions that don't bring on labor. I just took it as a sign that it is coming up quick. With Sanora I was induced so it went from no contractions to so strong I couldn't walk in a matter of 20 minutes. I told my doctor I didn't believe in prenatal classes because it gives one a false Idea of labour in your head. I didn't want anyone influencing my "going in expecting nothing so you don't get disappointed" tactic. She asked what about now that I have had a child? No it wouldn't because not only is every pregnancy different and every birth different but also situations have completely changed so anything can happen. Especially in a completely different hospital where I get to stay in one room instead of being shuffled from 3 different rooms.

I made Bread last night and it was really good. I have become notorious in my household for my cooking. I never use a recipe and when I do I use all kinds of weird substitutions. Well I didn't really do that this time and didn't you know it, it worked, I was like a happy little kid because I made something healthy that actually worked. I did put splenda in instead of honey and sugar and made the eggs egg whites, my usual changes. So because this one worked out we just decided that we're going to get like 6 bread pans and make a bunch at a time. We go through so much bread; it costs close to nothing to make it, so why not.

Last night Sanora I sat down and went over some basic sentences to help her pick up some of those in-between words. Well I decided to make her 2 little books the pictures taken from clip art. She can read little words like cat, dog, and pig so I made one about those three animals. Then one little rhyming one cat, rat, hat and sat like they do in other reading books. She likes it more knowing I made it for her so I'm hoping that will encourage her to read. We're going to start hooked on Phonics with her but in the mean time if anyone has some suggestions of reading material that she might like, send the info my way.

Crazy Busses!

Well yesterday I got my ROE, and I got it to the government office before it closed, thank goodness. Soon we can do our taxes aswell, so that will be good. Our truck will be done on Monday and we will be very very happy about that especially Bryan. He has been taking the bus lately and hating every moment of it. It would be ok if it games wasn't on though. For the winter games they have completely changed all the rutes for the buses so where it took one bus to get to work it know will take 2 or 3 busses to get to work. It's all catered to getting the athletes where they need to go, so the locals are not to happy right now. I am just hoping i don't go into labour until we get the truck and car seat,lol. That is all going to happen next week so....baby stay in there till then.

ROE/Prego

Well I thought that my ROE had come in but when I opened the envelope I found that it was actually my T4 slips for Reitmans. Although that is good, it just really sucks that it hasn't come in yet. I put my application for Maternity leave in over 2 weeks ago but they need the ROE to finalize the application. After they get it than the 2 week holding period can start,lol! All in due time I guess.

I know I'm just being silly but it really feels like it is any day now. I only remember pritty much half of my pregnancy and none of the last 2 months. This in mind I probebly just think that because I am more sensative to what's going on in my body. I had a doctors appointment today and I have to say proudly that this is the first time that Bryan hasn't been with me. He has always made the biggest effort to include himself in every aspect of both pregnancies....mind you I didn't really give him much chance with the first one. Everything is well with the baby, and Sanora was really happy when the doctor let her listen to her own heart beat. I am down to once a week appointments and i have everyone booked up until the due date. Makes it feel like it's coming up even closer,lol.

The winter Games/Cats

Well the winter games is fastly approaching and has every local praying for it to be over quickly. The students at the college have been kicked out of there dorm rooms and told to clean out there lockers, Businesses have no staff to account for the boost in temperary population, and it to top it all off it's -33 not including wind chill. We're all hoping that the cold will dive everyone away, especially those planning to buy a house in the next year. In the mean till friends are renting out there house to an athlete in winter games and we got there cats last night. So far the cats are just hiding from eachother, so I hape that means they'll be ok.

Poor Bryan

Well things are a little crazy right now. Poor Bryan is working 43 hours in 3 days, with 6 shifts back to back between 2 jobs. That's including the contract that has to be done very quickly. Well I am very proud of him and Hope he doesn't burn out before he gets the time off to relaxe. He has 2 days off coming up so he is looking forward to that. He asked that Sanora sleep in our bed these next few nights so he can see and cuddle with Sanora while she's sleeping, I thought that was so cute. Anyway I have a date with sanora to finish watching tom and Jerry,lol.

Truck

Well timing is never right for us. Bryan had started the truck this morning and was warming it up to go to a meeting. Well when he went to get in the truck it was smoking, leaking coolent and rattling and he came in saying that the truck "bit it" ! Bryan managed to get the truck down the hill to Yukon Tire only to find out that the gasket blew and it would cost us $1500 to fix the truck. My first though was "oh god I better not go into labour", and poor Bryan has a 5:30am shift in the morning. Between tonight and the next 2 days he'll be working 36 hours between the 2 jobs. There's alot on his plate right now so he is feeling very overwelmed, and I don't blame him. On the upside Bryan got a PAYING contract for a film documentry doing all the promotion work. So all together Bryan is working 2 full time jobs and doing 2 contracts all at the same time....fun eh! I'm very proud of him and I think I will be just as greatful for summer to come as he is. Well when it concerns the truck...We're all ok, there's nothing we can do about it so, shit happens! I think If Bryan didn't freak out so much in these situations I wouldn't be so calm about them....we have to keep the balance!

Gerri/Staying Home/Photography!

Well I just had a nice long conversation with my Gerri-anne and who knows, depending on when this baby comes Gerri might still beable to be there for the birth. So I told my belly that she has to hold off as long as she can.....we'll se if she listens. I'm really Proud of Gerri and I can't to see her. I think I will be a total mush when we go to pick her up, especially with these yucky hormones!

Well there are definantly pluses and minuses to staying at home. When you wake up early trying to entertain a 5 year old, it's a long day by the time bed time hits! It's not exactly to my benefit that Sanora hates the cold, mind you I try just for the entertainment value discised as displeasure. It's a good thing that Sanora doesn't know that when I'm "going to get something", I'm actually giggling in the other room. It often makes me wonder how often my parents did that with 4 girls in the house.

One of the great things about so much time is that I am able to do more photography and eventually Bryan is going to do a website for me. The website will be of my portfolio for his portfolio, so you can't go wrong with that. Even if I do some odd jobs it will be nice. I actually have some photo shots fermly inplanted into my head, but I have to wait for the spring before I attempt them. I have to gather models and what not so it will take time anyway. Most of my ideas include nude models, so that will make the model finding proscess a little harder,lol.

Gerri News

Well I just got a call from Gerri-Anne and it looks like she will be staying an extra month. Gerri said that it would be between 2-4 weeks that she would be staying and would recieve extra time off when she got back to canada. Nothing is for sure yet, but she said she would let us know as she knows what's going on. The computers are down there so she was only able to give me a quick phone call, but she sends her love to everyone.

Valentines Day! (Commercially Fabricated Day!)

Well happy Valentines day everyone. I'm trying to continue the traditions that my mom had with us and do little things for Sanora on Valentines day. I believe that it is just a silly commercially fabricated day that is nothing more than a money grab. Those thoughts in no way effect the memories of chocolates and candies left on my bed when I got home from school nor the cards/notes left on the counter for us. My mother always did that up until she passed, She even sent me cards saying happy valentines day or easter. This year for Sanora I decided to make heart shaped cookies with red food colouring in them and sprinkles spelling "I love you" on a big giant heart. Maybe her and I can do a little craft as well, make window hearts or something. I love that window paint stuff.

I also am talking on MSN with Gerri right now for the first time in about 3 months, which feels good. She e-mails when she can and contacts when she can which is awsome. I can't wait to see her especially because we get to torture Bryan with our bickering, heh heh heh!

RIP Mrs.Delbeke

Well tonight I read an e-mail that i have been dreading. My best friends mother has passed away from canacer last night at 12:30 am. Jay is stuch a strong and beautiful person he sent such a beautiful e-mail which must have been hard to send. Jay's mother passed without pain surrounded by family and to top it all off the celebrated her life till 6:30 in the morning. That is the most beautiful thing I have ever heard, and I'm sure that his mother would be very happy. Jay you and your family are amazingly beautiful and I love you.
For those who don't know Jay, he was my best friend through college at CDIS. Jay, Ali and I where inseperable for a time being and kept eachother sane through all the allnighters. After College we reunighted again after we both had kids and I met his partner who I absolutley love and think very highly of. Jay is very much like Bryan in the artsy fartsy kinda way that drive both Lara and I Crazy,lol.

Bryan and i have discussed our funerals many times and have both decided that neither of us want one. We want a party being held and i even know exactly what music Bryan wants played. Ahhhh scary thought, but I would rather know what his specific wants where to be prepared.

Gerri and Baby

Well I got an e-mail from Gerri saying that she may be here by March 11th. The Military is very up in the air so it can change the day she is about to leave. They need some people to stay behind as well and she is unsure weather or not she might be one of them. I am crossing my fingers for the 11th but hey it's probebly good for promotion and her career if she stays longer....so power to her what ever happens.

This baby is going nuts! Reminder that it still might highly be a boy, we will know when the baby comes for sure. A friends sister has a little girl and we have a ton of baby cloths of all colours that should last us a while. Mind you if this one is anything like Sanora it will mean right into the 3 month Clothing. 6 Weeks left, it's crazy, I can't wait. Mind you I do want her to stay in there as long as she can. I know it sounds funny but I want a healthy child and it would be nice if Gerri was able to make it for this one.

Well around this time when I was pregnant with Sanora is when everything was happening with my mom. I think that i was so preoccupied with everything that I have no recognition of the last month of my pregnancy. Things keep coming up where I am thinking..."Oh my lord, did I really get this with Sanora?" and the answer is, I have no idea. It's nice in the way that this stage feels so fresh and new, and I think my mom would be as happy as could be at all the grandchildren there are and how everyone seems to be doing well.

34 Weeks!

"YOU BREAK IT YOU FIX IT!"

Well there is a bit of a big mess. My manager told me that I was intitled to one week vacation and that I had to take it before I left or I wouldn't get it. It was my manager that inquired about it and told me it was approved by the district manager. If it wasn't implied that the district manager aproved it I would have double checked. So becuase of all of this, I left on the 27th of Januray instead of the 3rd of Feb. Well I get a call today from my manager stating I wasn't even titled to a week vacation so they are putting my dates back a week, meaning I am out a week of pay. On top of this all I am informed that I may not even get my bonus which is a far size and would go straight to saving and the baby. I called Labour services to see if this is all even legal, I just couldn't believe she messed up that badly. I then remembered that I still have 2 float days and a 1/2 lei day left and if I wasn't getting one week vacation I should atleast be intitled to that. Needless to say my manager was brushing me off so a phone call to the district manager is what came next. To my shock Diane our district manager had no idea that I went early and was absolutely pissed because she knew nothing about any of this. We started getting into a few details and there was a bunch of other things that she didn't know about stating "That's just now how the company works." and said That I need to tell Sandi my manager that it's her mess and she has to fix it. I called originally to see if I was intitled to anything, because Sand had no answers for me, and I was a little scared that I would have no one to back me up. Diane (DM) told me as well that I should not be penialized for sandi's (M) mistake and she will approve anything that need to be approved for me to get what I need. I am intitled to one weeks pay of vacation but that is something I have to request in writting so it may take a little longer but I will get it. Well my manager may be pissed at the moment and wont have fun with this....as the saying goes......
"You break it, You fix it!"

The Big Talk

Today I had a doctors apointment and next I go down to once a week. That is definatly a sign that it is coming up quick. I got a few more things for hospital bag today. We wheren't 100% sure what I would need the first time around, so now it's nice to know the importance of those little things. At least I will have a private room. Sanora has had a really bad cough aswell, we took her to the doctor aswell. The doctor just said good food, lots of liquids and if it doesn't go away in a couple of days come back. It was cute, she brought a stuff animal just in case she got scared, she would have something to hug.

The other night Sanora and I had a big talk about what was going to be happening when the baby comes. We talked about everything from what hole the baby was going to come out of to what's going to happen when I am at the hospital to what she can do to help. Needless to say it was a very very interesting conversation and I was very impressed how grown-up she was about everything. I told that it was going to hurt me when the baby comes out and that I will be in pain but it will be ok becuase she will have a sister as a result. Sanora started to cry and told me she didn't want me to hurt, it was the sweetest thing. I just explained to her that when I had her in my belly it hurt when she came out but it made me happy because now I have her. She seemed to be ok with that,lol.

It's increasingly becoming harder to move around and do things. I can probebly sleep all day if I let myself. Bryan is amazing, he just lets me sleep and has been getting up with Sanora. That will stop soon though, when he starts at Starbucks, he will be needing way more sleep. Bryan is such a good dad, Sanora is one lucky girl.

1 week

So it's been one week and so far. It has it's ups and downs to being at home, the definant up is spending so much time with Sanora. Mind you she likes to play by herself alot and mommy doesn't know how to play it right. Bryan and I finally figured out a way of getting outside more. I love the winter, If it's anything like this every year I'm lovin it. No matter how cold it gets it always seems to be beautiful blue skies, can't go wrong with that. Sanora hates it though, she's not liking the cold one bit. Donovan's sister is her whith her fience so that will be nice to see a framilure face from Vancouver.
Well I can't wait to meet the baby, she never stops except when people want to feel her move. I started setting up our room the other day, all thats left is sorting through clothes. A friend's sister has a little girl and gave us a ton of clothinging including bottles and a baby bath. If She's anything like Sanora she'll bi-pass all the newborn clothing. we'll have to wait and see I guess!