clearity after chaos

Well it has been crazy, everyday I still find it hard to believe that december is coming up so soon. I am 23 weeks along and and it difinantly seems to be going by faster than when I was pregnant with Sanora. It's getting colder now, it's been -25 and with windchill -30. I don't mind the cold at all, I don't really seem to think much of it. I know I like here by that, when you like where you are or who you're with the bad things you just kinda stop noticing. Since we have been here, it's like that man that married became the man that I always though he could be and then some. Bryan changed from the trip up here and every day keeps changing. Bryan before never was keeping up with me, and i am starting to think if I don't watch out I wont be able to keep up with him. There are times when I thought it would just be easier to give up one him. I think it is like when you completely reorganize your house, it usually becomes chaos before it becomes clean. I'm just so anxious to go to school again, I feel so uneducated, ahhh and of course I can't wait for the baby to be born. It's neat to have that feeling, what is she going to look like, is she going to be like Bryan or me, or neither? Well I guess we'll have to see.